If there was to be a new horror film to come out in the cinema's now, a horror film with this as the subject would terrify me, as it is scaring me right now.
As I stand on the edge of the cliff, I look up through the kaleidoscope of my future, and I can't help but notice that I could fall off the cliff into the future of working order.
As University has practically finished for me, my supervisor at work instantly noted this, and increased my hours by 35-40 hours. This is something I didn't want, however because of the increase of pay fortnightly, this has helped in getting new furniture for my new unfurnished flat.
The big problem for me because of this, is the decline of creative ideas. My working order from work, home, back to work and home again, is killing my creative thinking. I seem to be doing the same things when I get back to the flat and my time to think of ideas and work on my personal work has diminished.
There are two certain factors about my situation that are to blame for this issue I have between me and my brain:
1.
Virgin Media
Since I have moved into my new flat, I simply wanted to transfer my internet services from my old house to the new flat. I found out however, I had cable services from Virgin, and at this new property, I could only go National (through the phone line basically). From this, I got on the phone to Virgin Media about this and setup the switch, they then told me about receiving a text on the 'confirmation' of the switch being successful and the services being 'activated' so it was ready to use.
"So how long will this take?"
I said on the phone, her response:
"You will receive a text on the date, it usually takes between 7-14 days."
"Oh, right, okay" (hope its only 7 days) I thought.
Then I finally received my text on confirmation, then as you will see, I received another text after the long wait to hear more annoying news:
Do take note on the dates the messages was sent.
So, I was without internet for this long, and some might think 'Huh, thats not too long, surely you would be fine?' WRONG!
Without internet for this long almost drove me to insanity, and so with no Internet I was not online with the world, and so my working order routine was started from not having any Internet. I would also like to clarify that this screen shot was taken as I am typing this post, and so I have Internet now, that is why you can see the WiFi symbol at the top.
On the 17th of July, once my services had finally been activated, I then learned that my new flat complex does not have Fibre Optics yet, and so having internet through the telephone line means I have been receiving 3mb Internet, which is scandalous since I was paying for a Superhub that meant I was receiving 27mb (supposed to be 30 but oh well).
2. Work
As you've already heard, my hours have rapidly increased which has led me to be doing 2 hours under full time status. Obviously this is primarily to blame. In this section of blame, I would like to state of the way my hours have increased to develop this problem. Because I thankfully had already booked time off for festivals and general holidays, they couldn't stop me from not going to work, however this was the same for everyone on my department. So with this in mind, our department began (and still is) getting understaffed.
So my hours increased dramatically, however before heading off on holiday and festivals, because we were/are understaffed, this led to me having to work 7 full days straight, and another 6 days straight.
All mixed 8 hour shifts, from 6am to 2:30pm, 8am to 4:30pm, 12:30pm to 9pm.
This style of working, mixed in with no Internet at the flat, has been the recipe for the decline into working order, and the diminishing of creative thinking.
A light at the end of the tunnel?
So from having Internet back into my life again, my creativeness is extremely slowly crawling back. It's strange, my creative thinking stretches from my own personal work, to games I play on, such as Minecraft/Tekkit/FTB. I mean Ive started playing it again since the return of my Internet (I know what your thinking right now, you don't need Internet to play them? WELL I have my own Tekkit Server that I am preparing) When returning on to it for the first time, there was no creative thought for what to build, my mind was blank, and that was scary.
Aside from playing that, my creative thinking is slowly returning, but it's absence has really hindered my drive to do anything, so as you can probably imagine, I haven't really been great in the past 2-3 weeks. The only true release from working order and all troubles was the glorious return to the festival Global Gathering.
Instead of the usual company of Dave Collins and Dr Thornthwaite, I had the pleasure to have Abigail Armstrong, Lauren Armstrong and James Hamilton along side me to witness such great live acts. If you went then I hope you also enjoyed yourselves, as I did. Although it rained for the first time. This did not hinder our spirits. The top live acts I witnessed had to be as follows:
5. Orjan Nilsen
4. Richard Durand
3. Disclosure
2. Zedd
1.Arty
All YouTube highlights will be available on my channel, soon...Once I finish uploading everything else that is in the queue (it appears I am behind):